Day 1-Jan. 11 2010

This is the first entry of my first blog and the first day of my new commitment to my family. How does one become a better person? You find what you want to fix and you fix it. We may all think our egos are untouchable and that we have nothing to change. I will almost guaranty you that if this is how you feel deep deep down...it is incorrect. I have had this feeling while at the same time knowing I have to improve my life. With a large part of my family (Shane) being gone for four days I had a "real" realization that while I can tell myself I want to change, I never will until I let go of the horror and ego that resides deep within me. My life over the past few years has been a journey ..graduating college and leaving all your new amazing friends, moving by yourself to an unfamiliar and large city, the birth of a beautiful daughter and the struggles we endured during this time, and the loss of my job. This has all come together to culminate in the form of laziness, lack of motivation, general disregard for any responsibility, depression, and really a lack of love for one whom I have loved so deeply in the past. I have turned from one on the path of intellectualism to your average emotional and illogical thinker. I am writing this tears are forming and I can't help but wish I could take back at least the past two years of my life.

This blog is the start of a new way of life for Lindsey Pietrzak. A journey of self improvement. This did not stem from some silly New Years resolution but from a desire to become healthier and happier for my family. I have failed and have continued to disregard many promises I have made, but I am ready for that part of my life to discontinue.

So this is Lindsey's Challenge. The largest part of this being about my journey through becoming a more healthy individual, but also how feeling better physically will affect my mental abilities as well. This blog will serve as a public journal. I will write daily about my exercise, eating habits, general feelings, any struggles during my day and how I intend to overcome them, and most importantly the improvements that have been made. I will post a weekly picture of me so you can follow right along as if you were all here with me :)

My first and most directly achievable goal is to lose 10 pounds a month. For the other aspects of my life I wish to improve upon I don't feel I can give a set timeline for a goal. You can never stop improving your mind, so to me the rest is a lifelong goal.

I invite anyone who wishes to to join my challenge.. whether you are interested in the physical aspect, logical aspect, both, or just looking for some general motivation please join me! Comment about your progress. We are all in this dump together, lets be there for each others self improvement and maybe we can make a go of staying on the earth a bit longer :) And if no one reads this then at least this serves as an outlet for me to monitor my progress. I will write back later with my day and an updated picture.

Let the challenge begin!